Jennifer Brea made a documentary about her illness, but it isn't just her illness. It's an illness millions of us have. The documentary is "Unrest," and it's now streaming on PBS and Netflix. "Unrest" is about Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
My husband and I were able to watch it last night since Netflix now has it. PBS aired it, but not locally, so we had to wait for Netflix. If you don't have access to either streaming service, you can pay to rent it on Amazon and other streaming sites.
"Unrest" is an expansion of her powerful Ted Talk:
Many of you might prefer her Ted Talk, which has essentially the same information as in the movie, simply because the movie is much more difficult to watch. "Unrest" makes you watch people suffering with CFS/ME up close and personal. It reveals the reality of what being bedridden from fatigue is really like. It's not easy to watch, even as someone who has been bedridden from CFS/ME. I know the illness from the inside, having it myself, but watching it from the outside was still difficult for me. Her Ted Talk has the science and the facts in a more condensed format too, for those who want to learn, but don't want to commit to watching the full documentary.
As someone with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and knows other people with it, I would like to strongly encourage you all to get everyone you know to watch "Unrest." What I hope the movie accomplishes:
1. Breaks down stereotypes about the illness. We are not lazy, we are not just tired, we are not just being selfish. With this illness, willpower doesn't work. We can't just "buck up" and push through. It doesn't work. "Tired" is normal. Chronic fatigue is not. They are not the same thing.
2. Encourages the funding of research on CFS/ME. As she explains, CFS/ ME receives the least funding of all major debilitating illnesses, and therefore very little progress is being made. As it is now, most doctors I've talked to have told me I just need to exercise more or go see a psychologist. The problem is that research that has been done shows that exercise can be detrimental to CFS patients, making their condition much worse. I know this is true from personal experience. And the illness is not a psychiatric one - that's what doctors say when they don't know how to treat you. I would so much rather hear, "I don't know."
3. Helps family members and friends to come to an understanding of what their CFS loved one is going through. It's so difficult to explain ourselves, mostly because people don't listen with the intent of understanding. Most people in my life try to tell me what to do to get better, but very few have asked me about my point of view with the illness. I hope this movie breaks assumptions and encourages real dialog between the patients and friends and family. As it is, it takes so much energy to communicate, and so much recovery time from speaking. It's extremely discouraging to have our energy wasted on words that no one truly listens to.
Please watch it. Help us to get help. Start the conversation that will open up people's minds to the reality of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
I would like to share a few personal thoughts:
"Unrest" serves as a great introduction to CFS/ME. I really appreciate the overview it gives. But that's just it: it's an overview of people who are bedridden from CFS. There is so much more to learn about it.
Many of us with CFS, like myself, are not bedridden. At least, I'm not anymore - not most of the time. Some days I am bedridden, but I'm mostly chair-bound these days. Not an office chair, a comfy reclining home chair. Yes, sitting up in a chair is a big improvement over laying down in bed. Back in 2013 I was bedridden for months, and then stuck in bed more than 50% of the time over a year and a half. If I didn't get lucky with finding my doctor I may still be bedridden. I got very lucky with finding a doctor who could help me... but he's not local. I fly half way across the country to see him, because all the local specialists I went to told me I was a mental patient and a hypochondriac. One of them did diagnose me with chronic fatigue syndrome after 6 months of going back to her complaining about the extreme fatigue. She also did the Tender Point Test and diagnosed me with fibromyalgia. She also diagnosed me with anxiety and depression after I came back to her to say that the Cymbalta she put me on was amplifying my pain tenfold and made me suicidal. Without running tests, she sent me to a psychologist. She didn't even send me to the ER after saying I was suicidal. Most CFS patients are not lucky like me. They haven't found a doctor who can help them. They're stuck with doctors like I first went to, doctors that don't know what they're doing. Doctors with no training in Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
My doctor is a Naturopathic Doctor, and a rather unique one (HumanNatureNaturalHealth.com) - I've learned that many people automatically dismiss anything a Naturopathic doctor has to say, so I'm careful who I reveal this to now. Someone even told me I'm hurting myself just because I'm seeing an ND and not MDs... as if I didn't already get worse under the care of MDs. But the fact of the matter is, no matter what your opinion on naturopathic doctors is, he's the only doctor who's made progress with me. When conventional medicine fails, I hope you can understand why we seek out the unconventional for help. Please don't dismiss what works. I'm not dismissing MDs either - they all have their specialties and play important roles in health care. They've helped me with other conditions, and I am very grateful for some MDs I've seen in my life. I'm about to go to another MD, a cardiologist. But when it comes to CFS, I couldn't find help from MDs.
Those of us who can work part-time were not featured in this film. I respect that. I understand why she didn't share our part of the story. "Unrest" needed to be convincing by showing the worst of the illness, and I was at that "worst" point for a while myself. I use the word "worst" lightly here, because I don't compare people's suffering. Suffering is suffering, no matter the level of it.
But I also think it's very important that people understand how hard we CFS patients are trying to keep living our lives. I work 12-15 hours a week. Some weeks that's too much for me. Other weeks, as long as I supplement correctly, I can handle a few more hours. Because I'm able to work part time, I find myself in this grey area of illness. Social Security Disability isn't taking me seriously, even though I can't work enough to pay my bills. Many of my friends and professional connections don't take me seriously, and I'm thankful for those who do take me seriously. They see me at my best: when I'm geared up for work, having saved my energy to spend during those hours. They don't see me when I'm back at home laying on the couch struggling to get up to go to the bathroom. They don't see me when I have to crawl up the stairs because I don't have the strength to walk up them. They don't see me when I'm stuck in bed until noon because my body won't wake up enough for me to get up, even though my eyes are open. I call in sick when I'm that weak, and sometimes I get in trouble for calling in sick - how can I be useful and reliable to the company when I call in sick? I have to carefully reserve calling in sick only on days when I'm doing badly enough that I can't drive. If I can drive, I can work, even if it's taking all my strength just to stand up. I hate this, because I believe in being an effective employee - why accept money for doing a poor job? I want to be able to always do my best at work. If I can't drive, then I'm sick enough to call in. I hide the rest of my reality from them, not entirely by choice, but more due to the nature of my illness. I also know how to supplement in order to boost my adrenaline enough to be able to keep working if I don't have the energy to make it, and my co-workers see this, so they know I have the ability to keep going sometimes... but when I do this, I pay very hard for it later. I need a lot of recovery time, and that recovery time can be painful to endure. It can mean I can't come back to work the next day. I'm typically scheduled for 4 hour shifts every other day, sometimes with 2 days between shifts. This works really well for me. Other people with CFS are not lucky enough to find an employer willing to schedule them like this... I doubt I could find another job in this town that would work with me this well. I can't express just how grateful I am for my job, and that's why I haven't quit, even when I've felt to sick to keep working.
And I know people with CFS/ME who manage to work full time, but they don't perform very well at their jobs. They're giving all they have just to be able to afford their home and food, but they make lots of mistakes at work and really struggle to maintain a professional image. Once they get home they can't clean, cook, or take care of personal business. They're drained. Their stories were not told either. I would love to see a follow up documentary to cover the rest of us who are not 100% bedridden.
Thank you for reading. Please share this along with telling people to watch "Unrest." Let's be heard. Let's get funding for medical research on CFS/ME. Let's educate doctors. Let's educate our employers, friends, and family. Let's connect with each other and bring more meaning and value to our sick lives.
If you would like to help take action, please sign the petition to get research funded:
https://www.unrest.film/nih-petition
